I dont like this feeling...
I really dont like it...
It's fucking stupid...
This is bad and I know..
And there's two side of me fighting each other..
Self control I need to learn..
Trust is what I need to have..
Self-Confident is what need grow..
I think I m a very bad person..
Or should I say revengeful person...
I need to let go..
I need to learn to let go and be nice...
But I m afraid of pain..
I dun wat is ahead...
I use to be brave and just walk forward and find out...
I use to think that it's fun and that I'll love it..
But not now...
I dun like doing what I m not sure about..
But everytime when I m just starting to think;
Something must pop up...
Big, small, tiny..
But it takes two hands to clap..
Something too place thus I feel that..
Or m I finding some excuse for myself?
And to make things worst I can't exactly rant anywhere..
The blog is open..
And I like to keep it this way..
My twitter is no longer a place for me to just rant ANYTHING under the sun anymore...
Fb is a confirm not a place to rant...
But I really need to let it out..
I m sorry if u are like going..
" what!? Another emo post ? After not updating for so long?"
I really dun wanna rant this here but I dun really have a channel to turn to now..
Like I know u are reading my blog..
And u must be thinking...
"Mmmmm.. Okay... Thats 'interesting'.. I wonder what is up.."
If u are planing to ask me anything..
Pls be prepared for me to just walk away in ur face..
Unless u are lucky enough...:)